Monday, May 12, 2008

Perpetual....

So I'm contemplating and pondering....over the most unimportant deal in my life now (I had to make it unimportant because it is not one of my priorities at the moment).

For the past couple of months, I've been bombarded with academics that I barely had time to think about anything. Now that I have almost a month of vacation, these crazy thoughts are working their little butt into my mind. So I'm thinking "Am I in denial or Is my mind the devil's workshop?"

Have you ever left a conversation being absolutely confused about what that person means to you?

Yeah..that's not something you want to feel..especially if it keeps you awake at night!

7 comments:

Kavitha Jay said...

hmm..had that feeling once..n i never wanted to talk to that person again..lol..i hate when i dont have control on certain things :P

Absconding said...

:D Well...it happens to me once in a while. I'm utterly confused about what that person means to me or how I feel about that person. I don't know if that's normal..may be it is!!

I don't mind talking to that person.. I just want to understand my feelings! I figured out a long time ago that I have absolutely no control over many situations...I wish I had control over my emotions (at least at times).

I hate sounding desperate, coming off as a weak person, etc. So..blah.. gotta work on this myself. Got to keep myself occupied! :D

Ok..now that was a long reply for two sentences! :D

The Maverick Blog said...

Moral of the Story:

What can 6 days of extensive Gymming do to someone? ----> Lose a night's sleep :D..

LOL.. I didn't know that my confusion syndrome was contagious :D.

N.V.Prashanth said...

Hmm... then its about that time that you better give it the due priority and make it important :P

Absconding said...

@ Sunil

Haha. Trust me...my confusion knows no bounds. It takes me to weird places and leaves me there..and won't come back to collect me until I've gone insane! :D

@ Prashanth

Absolutely not...! We worry about the most trivial of things at times..! I'm trying to convince that it's because of my idle mind! :D

rantravereflect/ jane said...

ya're normal girleo!
confusion is jus every girl's middle name..

hmmmmm.. ahemmmmm.. uhhhhhh.. i think these expressions buzz in all our minds every now n then :)

last week, it happened with my boss..
i wanted to manage a particular account, currently not in my portfolio..
during my one-hour meeting with him, we talked abt various things..
he talked. and I during the entire one hour, i was thinking of asking him for the account.. till te end, the thought stayed put in my head, and till now, it's bottled ryte there, n i'm like 'y the fuk cudn't i open ya mouth!!!!'

*frustration*
urghhhhhhhhhhh

wen it comes to cute guys, i usually deep-dive though- the tongue is somehow not as tied..
damn!

as for ya, jus go talk 2 the guy..
for all ya know, he may jus wanna tell ya teh same thing!!!

Absconding said...

@ rr

:D I have no problem with conveying the message. I just have a problem with figuring out my emotions and feelings. I can't make a decision until I pinpoint exactly how I feel about a certain person or an issue!

And...at times..people's actions and the way of talking just accentuate the confusion...because you wonder why you are confused about how you feel because you should really be ignoring that person! :D

*whew*

I can totally relate to your situation, by the way!

:D Thanks for stopping by my blog! :D