Someone royally screwed me over 2 yrs ago. The person refused to even talk about the problem. Kind of abandoned me to rot!!! Ignored me!! Never contacted me since!!
Two years later, YOU WANT TO KNOW HOW THE F*** I'M DOING? YOU TELL OTHERS THAT I'M A NICE PERSON? YOU ASK MY FRIENDS ABOUT ME?????
HOW DARE YOU!!!
Can you give me back more than half a year of happiness that I failed to experience? Do you have answers to the hundreds of questions that I asked myself???
You humiliated me. You degraded my self esteem. You made me feel like the scum of the earth!!
YOU WANT TO KNOW HOW I AM DOING NOW THAT IVE GOTTEN MY LIFE TOGETHER??!!
Sunday, June 29, 2008
Wednesday, June 25, 2008
Monday, June 23, 2008
Saturday, June 21, 2008
back on square one!
Ok! By now..everyone knows what Desavathaaram lacked. Regardless, I'll post a list of the things that were so apparent that I couldn't look past them.
- Weird/bad story line
- Bad graphics
- Lack of authencity of most of the characters
- The make up really did steal the emotions out of some of the characters.
- Too much of Kamal Hassan
- The ticket was 17 bucks per person!!! IT WASN'T WORTH WATCHING SUCH A MOVIE!!! One day..I'll make Kamal Hassan pay for it!!!
Anyhow....
Do you know what's the worst state to be in? VULNERABILITY. When you're vulnerable, you become restless. When you're restless, you can't stop being paranoid. When you are paranoid, your thoughts will be occluded. When your thoughts are occluded, you will not be able to see the bigger picture. When you don't see the bigger picture (and the other side of the coin), you will become depressed!! I think I'm right at the vulnerable part......lost....not wanting to be restless!!!!!!!
Is it possible to just ignore your feelings??!?!?! I'm a walking time bomb...ANY TIME NOW!!! ANY TIME!!!!!!!
I saw Sex and the City today. What a predictable ending!! Everyone's happy at the end. Is that life? May be it depends on your perspectives and attitudes!!!
- Weird/bad story line
- Bad graphics
- Lack of authencity of most of the characters
- The make up really did steal the emotions out of some of the characters.
- Too much of Kamal Hassan
- The ticket was 17 bucks per person!!! IT WASN'T WORTH WATCHING SUCH A MOVIE!!! One day..I'll make Kamal Hassan pay for it!!!
Anyhow....
Do you know what's the worst state to be in? VULNERABILITY. When you're vulnerable, you become restless. When you're restless, you can't stop being paranoid. When you are paranoid, your thoughts will be occluded. When your thoughts are occluded, you will not be able to see the bigger picture. When you don't see the bigger picture (and the other side of the coin), you will become depressed!! I think I'm right at the vulnerable part......lost....not wanting to be restless!!!!!!!
Is it possible to just ignore your feelings??!?!?! I'm a walking time bomb...ANY TIME NOW!!! ANY TIME!!!!!!!
I saw Sex and the City today. What a predictable ending!! Everyone's happy at the end. Is that life? May be it depends on your perspectives and attitudes!!!
Tuesday, June 17, 2008
To the male species..
Don't ask me why I wrote it. I just did. Just something random!
*The following is based on the assumption that you two are attracted to each other and kind of sort of are aware of it.*
1. If you are wondering if she thinks about you, don't wonder anymore. She does!
2. She likes to feel that she is special. You don't have to TELL HER that she is special directly. When she says something that sets her apart, don't say 'oh..everyone's like that'! Bummer!!!!!!
3. Some women are clingy. Some are not. I'll talk about the latter because the former needs WAY more attention. It wouldn't hurt if you call her once a day. It's all about reassurance. You don't want to leave her hanging.
4. She likes to know that she is appreciated and wanted. If you are going to take her for granted, I can only say that you might regret doing so.
5. If you have something to tell her, don't let your ego get in between. Women are not PSYCHIC. So..THEY WILL ASSUME....trust me, then can be quite creative with it as well. (This is for those guys who ''just sees her as a friend, THAT'S IT''!!!!!!)
6. Believe it or not, we do prefer honesty.
7. Most women get a tad bit (if not tremendously) jealous when you speak of another woman in high regards. Oh wait..I think that's called insecurity. :D In my case, it is quite ephemeral (lasting only a couple of seconds. :D)
8. Don't impose. Don't ask her to conform. Like the person for who she is not what you want her to be.
9. Most women are insecure about their body. Choose your words carefully in this topic.
10. If a woman wants something, the chances are that she will repeat it (at least once more). Repetition means 'register that in your head'!
11. I think that it's the THOUGHT that counts when it comes to 'gifts'! The fact that you remembered an important date is good enough. At least that's the case with me!
12. Use humor!!! Spontaneous humor is well appreciated among my species.
13. Show that you care!!!
14. Women are attention seekers. They try to get attention from you and your friends and your neighbors.
15. Women wants security. And they seek it. Even if you think that she is being silly, please don't say so.
16. Women like sensitive men (not those who cry at every sight of a beggar). They like guys who they can relate to.
17. For some reason, a lot of my friends prefer quiet guys. I don't!! He must be laidback though. When a guy is uptight, there is no room for much flexibility!!
18. Did I mention humor sense? Yeah..I'll mention it again!
19. She must have thought so far into the future (with you) than you can imagine!
20. Her day gets a 1000 times better by your presence or your voice!!
21. She WILL talk (if not brag) to her friends about you.
22. Females love surprises.
You see..women are not that difficult to understand. In fact, they let you know what they want, how they want it, where they want, and why they want - in subliminal messages or codes. You just have to have to listen to her when she talks!!!
*The following is based on the assumption that you two are attracted to each other and kind of sort of are aware of it.*
1. If you are wondering if she thinks about you, don't wonder anymore. She does!
2. She likes to feel that she is special. You don't have to TELL HER that she is special directly. When she says something that sets her apart, don't say 'oh..everyone's like that'! Bummer!!!!!!
3. Some women are clingy. Some are not. I'll talk about the latter because the former needs WAY more attention. It wouldn't hurt if you call her once a day. It's all about reassurance. You don't want to leave her hanging.
4. She likes to know that she is appreciated and wanted. If you are going to take her for granted, I can only say that you might regret doing so.
5. If you have something to tell her, don't let your ego get in between. Women are not PSYCHIC. So..THEY WILL ASSUME....trust me, then can be quite creative with it as well. (This is for those guys who ''just sees her as a friend, THAT'S IT''!!!!!!)
6. Believe it or not, we do prefer honesty.
7. Most women get a tad bit (if not tremendously) jealous when you speak of another woman in high regards. Oh wait..I think that's called insecurity. :D In my case, it is quite ephemeral (lasting only a couple of seconds. :D)
8. Don't impose. Don't ask her to conform. Like the person for who she is not what you want her to be.
9. Most women are insecure about their body. Choose your words carefully in this topic.
10. If a woman wants something, the chances are that she will repeat it (at least once more). Repetition means 'register that in your head'!
11. I think that it's the THOUGHT that counts when it comes to 'gifts'! The fact that you remembered an important date is good enough. At least that's the case with me!
12. Use humor!!! Spontaneous humor is well appreciated among my species.
13. Show that you care!!!
14. Women are attention seekers. They try to get attention from you and your friends and your neighbors.
15. Women wants security. And they seek it. Even if you think that she is being silly, please don't say so.
16. Women like sensitive men (not those who cry at every sight of a beggar). They like guys who they can relate to.
17. For some reason, a lot of my friends prefer quiet guys. I don't!! He must be laidback though. When a guy is uptight, there is no room for much flexibility!!
18. Did I mention humor sense? Yeah..I'll mention it again!
19. She must have thought so far into the future (with you) than you can imagine!
20. Her day gets a 1000 times better by your presence or your voice!!
21. She WILL talk (if not brag) to her friends about you.
22. Females love surprises.
You see..women are not that difficult to understand. In fact, they let you know what they want, how they want it, where they want, and why they want - in subliminal messages or codes. You just have to have to listen to her when she talks!!!
Sunday, June 15, 2008
Looks vs. Talent!
Aishwarya Rai (Bachan) is a beautiful woman (beautiful eyes and a hot body).
She is a very good dancer.
But she SUCKS as an actress. You'd think that a person who's had so much classical dance experience (as she claims) would be a better actress!!
It's about time people look past her looks!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA!! YEAH RIGHT! Like that would ever happen!!
She is a very good dancer.
But she SUCKS as an actress. You'd think that a person who's had so much classical dance experience (as she claims) would be a better actress!!
It's about time people look past her looks!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA!! YEAH RIGHT! Like that would ever happen!!
Friday, June 13, 2008
It's friday!! And it's the 13th!!
It's FRIDAY, the 13th!!!
Is this another day for you..or do you have any clairvoyance ideas associated with it?!?!
I think that it's just another day. But if you dare me to go outside ALONE at 12:55am, I might just fake a seizure! That doesn't go for this night...it's for any night!!!!
Is this another day for you..or do you have any clairvoyance ideas associated with it?!?!
I think that it's just another day. But if you dare me to go outside ALONE at 12:55am, I might just fake a seizure! That doesn't go for this night...it's for any night!!!!
Tuesday, June 10, 2008
My answers to some simple questions!
*A couple of questions that I thought of and my answers to them.*
Do you know why people compare themselves to others?
Because..those who compare are suffering from inferiority complex.
Do you know the reason behind most fights/arguments/encounters?
It is our stubborness - we refuse to forgive others, we refuse to let things go, we refuse to be mature.
Do you know why we find ourselves thinking about the person that we try so hard to forget?
Because we secretly want to think about that person. We feel guilty about thinking about that person...yes...but we can't help it!! You still have feelings for him or her!!
Do I believe that most people are attention seekers?
Yes I do!! It may not be a bad thing. Our ego might get in the way when it comes to asking a person to listen to you as you are trying to unload something from your mind. So..what do u do? You think of other ways to relieve your pain! I'm not going to give examples!!!
Do I think that a female and male can be friends without either of them feeling anything MORE than friendship toward the other?
Yes, I do! I am not denying that people can at times WONDER how things would be if they hook up. Regardless, I think it is very possible to just be friends. Doubts? Ask me!!
Why do we think that we are not able to figure those 'special' people in our lives..?
Because when trying to figure them out, we make things complicated. We overanalyze and we think too deep. We are setting them apart because..well..because they are special. When they are special, they are different..they are unique. The 'uniqueness' is associated with mystery... when these people are not even enigmatic! HAHAAH! Please...they're just humans. How complicated can they be?? I think that our subconscious mind secretly want us to think of them as mysteries..because...it's adventurous!!
What do you think of those people who think to themselves (and let others know) that they're better than others?
I think that they're suffering from inferiority complex as well!! Most of the time, it's a facade!Have a person who has a stronger personality encounter them...you'll see how they fall apart.
Is one female threatened by the presence of another female?
Depends on the situation. But if the first female is used to receiving all the attention, yes she will feel that way! Then again, women and their comparisons can lead them to abyss! :D
Do you believe that there is a reason behind everything?
Yes I do. Yes there is!
Do you believe that most of us spend so much time trying to please others?
Unfortunately, I do. Our ultimate goal is to make ourselves happy by doing so. Mind you, this is not philanthropist act. Au contraire, we are just being selfish.
Why do women cry more often than men?
This question doesn't mean that women are more sensitive than men. This doesn't mean that women feel something more than men. Now..to answer the question: 1. Blame the society 2. Testosterone!
*Oye...oye*
Today's statement: You hear what you want to hear!!!
Do you know why people compare themselves to others?
Because..those who compare are suffering from inferiority complex.
Do you know the reason behind most fights/arguments/encounters?
It is our stubborness - we refuse to forgive others, we refuse to let things go, we refuse to be mature.
Do you know why we find ourselves thinking about the person that we try so hard to forget?
Because we secretly want to think about that person. We feel guilty about thinking about that person...yes...but we can't help it!! You still have feelings for him or her!!
Do I believe that most people are attention seekers?
Yes I do!! It may not be a bad thing. Our ego might get in the way when it comes to asking a person to listen to you as you are trying to unload something from your mind. So..what do u do? You think of other ways to relieve your pain! I'm not going to give examples!!!
Do I think that a female and male can be friends without either of them feeling anything MORE than friendship toward the other?
Yes, I do! I am not denying that people can at times WONDER how things would be if they hook up. Regardless, I think it is very possible to just be friends. Doubts? Ask me!!
Why do we think that we are not able to figure those 'special' people in our lives..?
Because when trying to figure them out, we make things complicated. We overanalyze and we think too deep. We are setting them apart because..well..because they are special. When they are special, they are different..they are unique. The 'uniqueness' is associated with mystery... when these people are not even enigmatic! HAHAAH! Please...they're just humans. How complicated can they be?? I think that our subconscious mind secretly want us to think of them as mysteries..because...it's adventurous!!
What do you think of those people who think to themselves (and let others know) that they're better than others?
I think that they're suffering from inferiority complex as well!! Most of the time, it's a facade!Have a person who has a stronger personality encounter them...you'll see how they fall apart.
Is one female threatened by the presence of another female?
Depends on the situation. But if the first female is used to receiving all the attention, yes she will feel that way! Then again, women and their comparisons can lead them to abyss! :D
Do you believe that there is a reason behind everything?
Yes I do. Yes there is!
Do you believe that most of us spend so much time trying to please others?
Unfortunately, I do. Our ultimate goal is to make ourselves happy by doing so. Mind you, this is not philanthropist act. Au contraire, we are just being selfish.
Why do women cry more often than men?
This question doesn't mean that women are more sensitive than men. This doesn't mean that women feel something more than men. Now..to answer the question: 1. Blame the society 2. Testosterone!
*Oye...oye*
Today's statement: You hear what you want to hear!!!
Saturday, June 7, 2008
50th post - RANDOM!!
Why are women so paranoid? Why are women so overdramatic?
Why can't they handle an issue without saying 'yeah ok..it's me who's the problem..you're all perfect.. fine..ill just leave the picture so you can be happy...i can't ever be a better person..blah blah blah'!! HONESTLY..GET OVER IT!!! Start having a bit of respect for yourself and STAND UP FOR YOURSELF, DAMN IT! Why the hell do women portray this inferiority complex over and over...?????? Why the hell do women appear SO WEAK and SO FEEBLE and SO HELPLESS when they're encountered by someone?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!??!?!?!?!?!!?!?!?!
Someone..please help me? Are they trying to make the other person guilty by doing so? Yeah may be they are. But why can't they see that it's just irritating the other person by doing so? OYE!!!
Am I unable to comprehend this phenomena because I happen to have quite a bit of an ego?!
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You know what play-hard-too-get is? Yeah..don't ever try it!!! If you don't know what regret is, you'll learn once you do 'play' it!!
Coincidentally, this happens to be a TOTAL CRAP of a post just like Sunil 's [even though his post wasn't crap. Who knows what kind of trouble I'll be getting myself into.]
Why can't they handle an issue without saying 'yeah ok..it's me who's the problem..you're all perfect.. fine..ill just leave the picture so you can be happy...i can't ever be a better person..blah blah blah'!! HONESTLY..GET OVER IT!!! Start having a bit of respect for yourself and STAND UP FOR YOURSELF, DAMN IT! Why the hell do women portray this inferiority complex over and over...?????? Why the hell do women appear SO WEAK and SO FEEBLE and SO HELPLESS when they're encountered by someone?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!??!?!?!?!?!!?!?!?!
Someone..please help me? Are they trying to make the other person guilty by doing so? Yeah may be they are. But why can't they see that it's just irritating the other person by doing so? OYE!!!
Am I unable to comprehend this phenomena because I happen to have quite a bit of an ego?!
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You know what play-hard-too-get is? Yeah..don't ever try it!!! If you don't know what regret is, you'll learn once you do 'play' it!!
Coincidentally, this happens to be a TOTAL CRAP of a post just like Sunil 's [even though his post wasn't crap. Who knows what kind of trouble I'll be getting myself into.]
Friday, June 6, 2008
Tag IT !!!!!
6 Whatevers About Me:
* My upper arm and lower arm aren't proportional (for both arms).
* I get irritated when people chew loudly and I don't like the gulping sound when someone's swallowing liquid.
* I love food.
* I don't care about receiving gifts - it's the thought that counts. I'm easily pleased.
* I am extremely patient.
* I am easily bored.
5 Things I miss in my life right now:
* I miss spending time with my friends.
* I miss cooking by putting random stuff in the frying pan and tasting the delicious outcome.
* I miss eating all the Chinese, Vietnamese, and Korean cuisines.
* I miss taking random walks by the river.
* I miss living life so carefree.
10 Things I wanna achieve within a decade:
* Get married (and stay married) [Have a traditional Orthodox Christian wedding]
* Have children
* Have a career
* Travel to AT LEAST 5 countries in different continents (France, Egypt, Korea, England, Singapore are in the list).
* Be fluent in a couple of languages (preferably Spanish, Tamil, and Hindi)
* Have a publication in a magazine
* Learn to cook [or MASTER the culinary arts]
* Buy a house [with my husband]
* Learn to fold a sari neatly
* Learn how to iron a shirt properly
The Book Tag
// Pick up the nearest book.Open to page 123.Find the fifth sentence.Post the next three sentences.
"A third class of reflexes, categorized under the nondescript term other, seems to have only vestigial meaning. In other words, phenomena like the palmer grasp, Babinksi toe fanning, and Moro response may have been important at an earlier point in human history but continue now without obvious meaning. For example, the Moro reflex is the tendency to swing the arms wide and bring them together agin in the midline (as if around the body of a cargiver)."
- Development in Infacy, An Introduction 4th ed.
by Michael Lamb, Marc Bornstein, Douglas Teti
[In other words, my 'Infancy' class textbook. Don't ask me why I read it today. That's the first book that I noticed as I was contemplating on reading something]
Tag five people, and acknowledge the person who tagged you.//
Sunil - The tagger!!
I'm not tagging anyone. :D Feel free to steal if you wish to do so!
* My upper arm and lower arm aren't proportional (for both arms).
* I get irritated when people chew loudly and I don't like the gulping sound when someone's swallowing liquid.
* I love food.
* I don't care about receiving gifts - it's the thought that counts. I'm easily pleased.
* I am extremely patient.
* I am easily bored.
5 Things I miss in my life right now:
* I miss spending time with my friends.
* I miss cooking by putting random stuff in the frying pan and tasting the delicious outcome.
* I miss eating all the Chinese, Vietnamese, and Korean cuisines.
* I miss taking random walks by the river.
* I miss living life so carefree.
10 Things I wanna achieve within a decade:
* Get married (and stay married) [Have a traditional Orthodox Christian wedding]
* Have children
* Have a career
* Travel to AT LEAST 5 countries in different continents (France, Egypt, Korea, England, Singapore are in the list).
* Be fluent in a couple of languages (preferably Spanish, Tamil, and Hindi)
* Have a publication in a magazine
* Learn to cook [or MASTER the culinary arts]
* Buy a house [with my husband]
* Learn to fold a sari neatly
* Learn how to iron a shirt properly
The Book Tag
// Pick up the nearest book.Open to page 123.Find the fifth sentence.Post the next three sentences.
"A third class of reflexes, categorized under the nondescript term other, seems to have only vestigial meaning. In other words, phenomena like the palmer grasp, Babinksi toe fanning, and Moro response may have been important at an earlier point in human history but continue now without obvious meaning. For example, the Moro reflex is the tendency to swing the arms wide and bring them together agin in the midline (as if around the body of a cargiver)."
- Development in Infacy, An Introduction 4th ed.
by Michael Lamb, Marc Bornstein, Douglas Teti
[In other words, my 'Infancy' class textbook. Don't ask me why I read it today. That's the first book that I noticed as I was contemplating on reading something]
Tag five people, and acknowledge the person who tagged you.//
Sunil - The tagger!!
I'm not tagging anyone. :D Feel free to steal if you wish to do so!
Tuesday, June 3, 2008
Sivaji, The Boss
Ok! I had to overlook the fact that a human can't possibly eat that many peppers and still smile for a good minute (without drinking water and not crying). I had to overlook the fact that a guitar will be torn to pieces when someone's hit by it. I had to overlook the fact that a drum can't possibly hold a 65+ kg man on top of it WHILE in a stunt. I had to overlook the fact that there's no way that a person can have an impeccable aim from a 10 storey building and have a coin land on the forehead of a person lying below. I had to overlook the fact that Sivaji's credicard only had 12 numbers. I had to ignore the fact that Sivaji was ambidextrous (for various reasons). But I just COULDN'T get over the CPR scene that was behind the revival of Sivaji!!
I have never seen a Rajinikanth movie before. I had always wondered what the whole fuss about him is. I got the answer today!! I understand, people. I understand why he has the entire Tamil nadu as his ardent fan! Look at the guy. He's 60+ years old and he is one hell of an actor!
Now to the movie:
Plot was quite a stretch. You have to ignore some things, you have to look beyond certain others, and you definitely have to put gravity aside. The movie speaks the story of a person who WANTS to do good for the society and actually DOES something too - that's the moral of the story; that's the underlying theme of the movie! I loved that! Oh yeah..I love how tamil movies make a
I think I liked the movie because there was a fine balance between humor and action. The song 'Athiradee' IS HOT!!! Oh my gosh..A.R.Rahman is the best!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Loved these dialogues:
"chinna pasangaa paakkom pogumsivajikkitta venda GO GO
six-kku appuram seven dasivajikkappuram evan da" - I THINK that I got the words right..! But yeah..I got the idea though!!
'brainikkonnum aakayille?' - haha..! This dialogue of Cochin Haneef was hilarious!!!!!!
Bachelor of Social Service! - :D
'full mealsaiy koduckkuaarango' - Vivek is hilarious!!!
'I like it...
Ethuka?
Unga...Ootthapallu' - :D
As a person who's never seen a Rajini movie before; as a person who has never completely seen a tamil movie before...I've got to say..I'm impressed! :D I never thought that I could see a balance between humor and action! :D
Thalaivar Vazhga!!!
I have never seen a Rajinikanth movie before. I had always wondered what the whole fuss about him is. I got the answer today!! I understand, people. I understand why he has the entire Tamil nadu as his ardent fan! Look at the guy. He's 60+ years old and he is one hell of an actor!
Now to the movie:
Plot was quite a stretch. You have to ignore some things, you have to look beyond certain others, and you definitely have to put gravity aside. The movie speaks the story of a person who WANTS to do good for the society and actually DOES something too - that's the moral of the story; that's the underlying theme of the movie! I loved that! Oh yeah..I love how tamil movies make a
I think I liked the movie because there was a fine balance between humor and action. The song 'Athiradee' IS HOT!!! Oh my gosh..A.R.Rahman is the best!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Loved these dialogues:
"chinna pasangaa paakkom pogumsivajikkitta venda GO GO
six-kku appuram seven dasivajikkappuram evan da" - I THINK that I got the words right..! But yeah..I got the idea though!!
'brainikkonnum aakayille?' - haha..! This dialogue of Cochin Haneef was hilarious!!!!!!
Bachelor of Social Service! - :D
'full mealsaiy koduckkuaarango' - Vivek is hilarious!!!
'I like it...
Ethuka?
Unga...Ootthapallu' - :D
As a person who's never seen a Rajini movie before; as a person who has never completely seen a tamil movie before...I've got to say..I'm impressed! :D I never thought that I could see a balance between humor and action! :D
Thalaivar Vazhga!!!
Monday, June 2, 2008
It's for the best....
I call and call. I leave voice messages (telling you that I'm sorry - I don't even know if a sorry was necessary). I call and call. I leave voice messages (telling you to call back).
You don't call back.
I think I'm past the 'anger phase'. I think that I'm past the 'bitter phase'.
Do I want to call again? Or should I just convince myself that it really isn't worth it and that I should move on?
I don't want to be desperate.
You know what love is? Love is sacrifice. Love is letting go of someone because you know that it's best for him (or her)!!!
I don't have time to worry about this. I'm glad that I recuperate quick!!!
You don't call back.
I think I'm past the 'anger phase'. I think that I'm past the 'bitter phase'.
Do I want to call again? Or should I just convince myself that it really isn't worth it and that I should move on?
I don't want to be desperate.
You know what love is? Love is sacrifice. Love is letting go of someone because you know that it's best for him (or her)!!!
I don't have time to worry about this. I'm glad that I recuperate quick!!!
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