:O Withdrawal period sucks! Whether it is associated with drugs or people!

Those who force me to sin...

I had my Anatomy and Physiology lab today. It was really cold outside and I really would rather be anywhere except in lab. Less than a month more of whining, and I will be out of there for good. Can't wait.

Have you ever been in a class that you really really REALLY hate and there are additional factors that make you hate the class even more to the point where you feel like plucking the fine hairs from your chin? Pssh. Admit it, you Indians. You know that we are hairy. Read on and may be you can get a gist why I was extremely irate today.

Let me introduce you to the know-it-all, repeater, and the smacker.

The know-it-all is not of rare species. She is repeating the class for she failed to get a decent grade the first time. Let me remind you that 1/8th of the class falls in the same category. Well, I don't know the rest of the 1/8th of the class. But I'll just talk about this particular organism. Our T.A. (Lab instructor aka Teaching Assistant) is Indian. So, of course has an accent - a thick one that is. This girl takes it on herself to make sure that everyone else understands him by CLARIFYING what he says further by adding additional information. I don't want to hear any more than what I want to know - ESPECIALLY in this class. Oh, also this girl starts screaming out answers as the T.A. is asking a question. I mean, let the guy finish his question. Half of the time, she gets the answers wrong. And apparently, she recuperates fast! And then, as the T.A. is teaching, the girl has the audacity to talk to her table-mates. If she were whispering, I can understand that because..I mean..let's face it. The class is boring. But no. She is talking so loud to the point where I feel like I have to chip into her freaking conversation.

I am mouthing 'SHUT [insert swear word here] UP', my table-mate joined me in rolling eyes and showing her frustration in any manner that she could. We even used sign language. I mean. HONESTLY! You are retaking the class. You are showing off your knowledge as though someone in the blessed world is interested. CAN IT, WOMAN!! CAN IT!!! And make it a point to get a decent grade this time. AAH! I strongly believe that the T.A.'s smirk had a lot to do with my non-verbal gestures (to myself) to show my frustration.

Oh. The repeater is a trip. She is the one who makes it a point to repeat every information that the T.A. oh-so-solemnly burdens us with. For example, let's say that the T.A. says something like, "So, the Gluteus meatus lies above the Gluteus maximus." Out of nowhere, you hear this "So, are you saying that the Gluteus meatus lies above the Gluteus maximus."! I'm like 'WHAT THE [insert swear word here]'! The dude barely finished his sentence and out pops the question. Honestly. What?! At times, one really can't help but to wonder if there's a way that you can kick her 'Gluteus maximus' back to Lala land.

Next, the smacker. The most annoying one in the group, probably. Yeah. Fine. Chew gum until Kingdom comes. I don't give a damn. But stop popping and smacking gum IN THE MIDDLE OF THE lecture when everyone is quiet (except the know-it-all, of course) and stop making me leap off my seat! She smacks her gum. Then, within minutes..she does it again...WITHOUT WARNING. And I get a heart attack every time she does it becomes she has graced me with her presence by sitting RIGHT NEXT TO ME. And she has her mouth wide open and she is chewing gum. So, if we are taking a quiz, I can't even hear myself thinking..all I hear is 'njam..njam....POP...POP....njam..njam...'! It is not long before someone glues her mouth shut!! When there are plethora of ways to entertain oneself, she just had to choose this!! This really is asking for murder!

It's called common courtesy or decorum or whatever that you want to call it. Oh. May be even COMMON SENSE. Use it!!!

So..I've been blogging on a regular basis. That shows that I clearly have a problem - emotional, what else. If you have read at least two of my blogs, that should not come as a surprise to you. Emotional problems do affect our physical well being. I don't know who I should thank for my insomnia. Ok. Fine. I may be exaggerating a bit. It is as though I DON'T WANT to sleep. I am too stubborn to fall asleep. Have you ever been so tired to the point where you think that the sight of bed will put you to sleep? Yes. I have been there, people. Yet, I refuse to sleep. Mind you. You are reading the blog of a person who values sleep so highly that she scolds those who don't get at least 7 hours of sleep.

My brain refuses to let me sleep. My body is turning against itself.

Oye!

Suggestions?

Six degrees of separation is no B.S., I kid you not. It is rather scary, actually. The internet world just makes me a more realistic human being - that where EVER we go, we cannot escape from our past.

I mean. HONESTLY. How do these people KNOW each other? Goodness gracious!!

Don’t underestimate the importance AND influence of sleep in your daily activities. I thought that I would be my PEACHY self even though I had only gotten less than 4 hours of sleep. Boy! Was I wrong!!

* It took me 2 hours to complete an essay that would have taken me less than an hour.
* Had an argument with a friend that would have gotten ugly if she hadn’t had the sense to put a cork on it. It was over the fact that I decided to overlook the fact that the cafeteria lady overcharged me 80 cents.
* Became EXTREMELY annoyed after reading a mail. It should be noted that I definitely overlooked an important point which was my mistake – and I got annoyed because I did not see that specific point that was clearly in BOLD!!
* Failed to see the obvious humor (which was definitely targeted at me). I usually would laugh it off. But NOT TODAY!
* Irate due to : “Blogger is currently unavailable
Blogger is unavailable right now. We apologize for this interruption in service.”

I want to scream until my vocal cords fail!!!

Lesson learned : Don’t interact with people when you have gotten less than 4 hours of sleep.

Expectations?

A friend once told me that I will be disappointed when I expect, especially in relationships. He said that when you have no expectation, you are rarely disappointed. I gave it a lot of thought. I tried to relate that to my relationships with people. And to my surprise, I found myself agreeing with the guy. It is ONLY when I expect something from others that I am disappointed.

Then again, even if you don't expect anything from a relationship...you must be understanding of each other's feelings, though. One must think "Am I being a good friend by fulfilling my duties as a friend?"! What is a relationship if it does not have some common grounds about courtesy, maturity, affection, kindness, etc.?

Is it really worth it to constantly shed tears over something that you THINK is meaningful? Is it really worth it to hold on to something that you question often? What purpose does it serve to know how important you are to the other person? Is it normal to have doubts?

May be..just may be...it might be time to let go!

Shaadi.com -> BEST entertainment site EVER!

Traitor..

It seems as though the sexiest body in the universe (mine-without a doubt)is failing me. I ran more than 2 miles last sunday and have been idle since. It was on Monday that I sensed this throbbing pain in my right side. Nevertheless, I waved it off because..well..I don't know. I just did not give it much of a thought.

Come today, as I was exercising, running in full speed....there it is. The pain again. It almost paralyzed me. I fell to the floor and was blinded with pain.

10 minutes. That's all it took.

Is this my body's way of rebelling against me? Has it no conscience whatsoever? Why wouldn't it let me be a better person (a skinnier one, err...a healthy one, I mean)?

That's it. It's time to deprive my body of some scrumptious food. I'm turning vegetarian. No room for negotiation.

Ha! Who's the boss now!!!

My pet peeve...

I hate it when people don't return calls.

13 Questions

Am I frustrated that people claim to know me, when they really have no clue? Who am I? What am I? When I, myself, am trying to find answers to those questions; why do people need to tell me that they KNOW me? Why does it bother and disappoint me that no one really knows me? Don’t I give people ample opportunities to get to know me? Why can’t people figure me out as I figure them out?

My God who rescues me from the trivial and critical matters is bailing out on me. Is this something that I have to fight (and get over) myself? Will I not be receiving any aid from my Lord? I can’t do this myself. I have become so weak. My body seems to be weakening my mind. My tears serve no purpose?

How long will this go on? I am afraid that this will consume me. I am so lost. I cannot think of my next move. I am so lost. After a lot of consideration, when I finally make a move, why do I feel as though I’m being impetuous and immature? I am so lost.

I don’t know how and what to overlook. I don’t know where my life is headed. I don’t know how much more time I have.

I will survive this. This is a small chapter in my life. I will come out of this trial as a stronger person. My only prayer is that I can endure this. I am pretty sure that I have been created to serve a purpose in this world. So, I will survive this. I will.

This will pass. This must!

One question: How many more, Lord?

Glorious monday afternnon, wasted inside an Anatomy and Physiology lab.

10+ students were waiting outside the classroom since our TA (Teaching Assistant) was late to class AGAIN. It seems to be a habit of his to be tardy and every single time he happens to have an excuse. He holds the access code for the classroom. Wonder if his tardiness is quite intentional! Hmm!! Did I mention that he is Indian? No surprise, there! Clearly, he follows the Indian Stretchable Time. No offense, people! You people know what I'm talking about!!

I decided to switch on my MP3 player to drown the chattering. When I realized that the girls were talking about the content of a potential quiz, I decided to turn off my MP3 player and give them my undivided attention. If you think that that is a sign that I'm one of 'em studious kids, ohh..bless your heart! Anyway, after one girl clues us in about the quiz questions (which of course she heard from her friend who's taken the quiz already - Violation of Honor Code! Ugh!), I was about to turn my MP3 back on since I had no interest in petty gossip.

Lo and behold I heard the magic words 'FOX' and 'HOUSE'! For those of you who have no clue of what I'm hinting at, House is THE BEST show on TV today. It's mainly concentrated on this sarcastic, insensitive, arrogant, condescending yet BRILLIANT doctor who saves patients' lives in his own way. My vocabulary is not extensive enough to describe how amazing this show is. Oye!!! This is SO not my point! So anyway, as an ardent fan..I never miss the show nor do I ignore a talk about it..!

So..this is kind of how the talk went:

Blondie # 1: I can never miss House.
Blondie # 2: Yeah...me neither
B# 1: I am so glad that the vice presidential debate is not on Tuesday. If it were, I would totally be upset.
B # 2: Ugh..tell me about it. I say that they should not even air it! Frankly, I would rather watch my favorite shows rather than watching these debates.
B # 1: I know...!!

Ok!! Well...that's the gist of the conversation!!

I really don't have much interest in politics. Frankly, my knowledge is very limited in that area and I tend to be a bit confused when these so called experts start talking about energy issues and wars and financial situations and all. I'm quite apathetic about a myrias of issues as well. Nevertheless, I do pay attention to certain things...as you will see below...

I really do believe that this is one of the worst situation America has faced in decades. The economy has been down the drain. People are freaking out about anything that has the word 'financial' attached to it. This being the election year, the choice of the American people is extremely crucial. The future of the country lies in the hands of the one who will be taking over it.

I am a prospective medical student. I am literally in the verge of tears because I cannot find a blessed bank to get loans. I can't find a way to finance my education, people. I am utterly lost. What choice do I have?

About the 700 billion bail out plan. What are the consequences of that? Who will have to pay for it, ultimately?

There will be absolutely NO SOCIAL SECURITY PLAN for us 40+ years from now. As we are working, we will be paying the bills of SOMEONE ELSE. Where is our future headed? Will our lives be secured?

Now. I don't have much interest in politics. But I darn sure do have an interest in my future. I would like to know the repercussions of the actions of MY GOVERNMENT.

You are sitting there telling your good ol' buddies that you have no INTEREST in the debate? The debate, where the candidates will address their plans and strategies in running our country and of the future of our country! You are telling me that you have no interest in this?

Pity!